Author: Suilan

  • Snippets – The Morgan Lore

    This is a new story in development.  I’m excited about it, hope you are too.

    Chapter 1 –Milan Takeda Moves to the Town of Portento

    Milan Takeda sat in the passenger seat as his brother drove the rental car from the airport to their new home.  His family seemed unable to settle in one city.  Moving was harder this time.  The Takeda family had managed to stay in Turin, Italy for the last three years.  Milan had loved every day of those three years.  Had loved becoming part of a community and getting friends.  The parents managed to lull Milan into thinking he could belong somewhere.

    Until one rainy afternoon, two weeks ago, when his father came home with the big family announcement.  The Takedas were moving to Portento, a small town in Colorado, USA.  Milan reclined his seat and folded his arms over his chest.

    Portento, the name sounded Italian.  The town’s founding fathers were Italian.  Choosing a name like Portento, they must have thought the town represented miracles.

    Their father, Kiyo Takeda, worked hard to excite his children into the move.  Kiyo was a research scientist working at Biosense, a company that developed drugs for various diseases.  Their mother was the Italian in the family.  Her name was Ilaria.  She was beautiful, full of energy and loved to laugh.  She was the reason this move happened without a fight.

    “Think of it as an adventure, Milan,” Ilaria told him when he started to protest the move.  “Your father is close to unlocking the key behind his research.  If he does, then you will be free too, my bambino.  Free to enjoy the world, as you want.  Meanwhile, your father is all about i miracoli della scienza.”

    “The wonders of science,” Milan murmured, tagging his jacket closed.  He shivered, drawing his brother’s gaze.

    “You’re cold.”

    It was a statement.  Ayu fiddled with the heat controls, and in seconds, Milan felt warmth start to sip into his body.  Ayu pulled over to the curb, slowing down to a stop.  Milan started to ask what he was doing, only to have Ayu reach in the backseat for a blanket.  He covered Milan with the heavy cashmere tucking the ends around Milan’s shoulders.

    “We’ll be home soon.  This place is cold in December.  I told Papa we should have waited to move in the summer.”

    Milan held Ayu’s dark gaze, and forced a smile.

    “It’s alright.  I’m fine, Ayu.”

    “No, you’re not,” Ayu said, pressing his palm on Milan’s forehead.  “You’re feverish, and you trying to hide it, doesn’t make it better, Milan.”

    Ayu shifted away, pressing a button to unlock the trunk, he opened his door and Milan closed his eyes as a wave of cold swept in.  He gritted his teeth, not wanting to shiver, but he couldn’t help it.  Ayu got out, closing the door fast, and hurried to the back of the car.

    He was back in minutes with a bottle of water, and a brown envelope of medicine.  Turning on the light above them, Ayu got two pills from the envelope and helped Milan take them.  Once Milan swallowed the antibiotics, Ayu placed the envelope in the console between them, and studied him.

    “I know moving is hard and you didn’t want to leave Turin,” Ayu said.

    Milan folded his arms under the blanket, his gaze holding Ayu’s dark one.

    “I wasn’t protesting for me.  I was worried about you.”  Milan dropped his gaze to his lap.  “I know you didn’t want to leave Christina.”

    “Milan.”

    “You love her.  I saw you two in the alcove before we had to leave.  She was crying and so were you, Ayu.  I don’t want to be the reason you left the girl you like.”

    “You’re important to me, too.  You are my little brother, Milan.  Moving here alone would be hard for you.  I’m taking a gap year, and will head to university as soon as you’re better.”

    “What if I don’t get better?” Milan asked, looking up to meet Ayu’s gaze.  “Mom and I, we talked to the doctor about my condition…this CVID immunodeficiency thing, I might have to manage it all my life.  You can’t stop doing what you want because you worry about me.  It’s not fair.”

    “Milan.”

    “Don’t take the gap year,” Milan insisted.  “Go back and enter Turin University with Christina.  Do it for me, Ayu.”

    Ayu shook his head.  “I can’t—”

    “Yes you can.”

    “But—

    “I’ll be upset if you don’t go.  You’ll be unhappy, and that will make me unhappy.  It will make me sick, and it will be because you didn’t listen to me.”

    “Your guilt tripping won’t work.”

    Ayu turned off the light overhead, and engaged the car into drive.

    “This move is not easy for any of us, Milan.  I need to be at home with you.  Dad’s always in his lab and Mom will be working now in the town’s hospital.  We can’t leave you in the care of the housekeeper and nurses.”

    “Why not?”

    “You’re sixteen—”

    “Turning seventeen in a month.”

    “Yeah, well endure my presence by your side until you’re eighteen,” Ayu teased.  “I don’t regret leaving Christina, Milan.  I love her yes, but she’s not the one.”

    Milan frowned.

    “As if you know what the one looks like.”

    “Do you know what the one looks like?” Ayu asked him, adjusting his seat belt, as he buckled in for their long drive home.

    “I’m sure I will know when he comes along,” Milan sighed.  “That is if I can live long enough.”

    “Milan, don’t say that.”

    Milan turned to stare out the window.  It was dark outside.  Their flight landed at seven in the evening.  The navigation system said the drive to Portento would take an hour and a half to two hours.  Milan sighed.

    “I’m sorry, Ayu.”

    “I’ll help you search,” Ayu said, after a while.  “When we find him, whoever your one is, they’ll love you, Milan, just as you are.”

    Milan closed his eyes and smiled.  He didn’t know about the one, but he did know that no one had a brother like Ayu, or a father like Kiyo and a mother like Ilaria.  He was content enough with their love.  Their unconditional dedication was enough for him, he decided as he drifted off to sleep.

    ***

    Their new home looked buried deep in a forest.  Milan had never seen so many trees in his life.  The town was at least thirty minutes away.  He had hoped they would be closer to it, this way he could walk in some days and explore.  Had Kiyo known his thoughts?

    Milan held the edges of the blanket over his shoulders, and stared up at the three-story house.  It was more modern than their home in Italy.  He instantly missed the warmness of Turin, and the ancient walls that had seen millennia of history.  This place was too modern, too new, too cold.  Light from the tall glass windows on the top floor poured down to the front yard.  Milan walked up the steps to the front door, pausing when the door opened and a short dark haired woman came running out.

    Milan chuckled when she pulled him into a tight hug, bubbling in Italian.

    Cucciolo, I’ve been so worried about you.  I kept wondering why I didn’t just wait before flying here.  I should have been the one to come with you.  I should have stayed and flown here with you.  Are you okay?”

    Ilaria stepped back, pressing her warm hands to his forehead.  It was impossible to stop this tirade, especially when she referred to him as a little puppy.  The only way to end the worry in her tone was to agree to all her suggestions.

    “You are too warm for my liking.  Come inside, it’s a warm shower, and off to bed with you.  Ayu, polpetto, come here, let Mamma hug you.”

    Milan laughed at Ayu, when he had to lean down to hug their short mother.  Catching Ayu’s gaze, he mimed a meatball, and got a scowl for his efforts.  Ilaria’s meatball let go of her and opened the door, stepping into the house.

    Cucciolo, you look pale.  Tomorrow, I will stay home with you,” Ilaria said, wrapping an arm around Milan’s shoulders.  “I’m worried the traveling will get you sick.  It’s almost the holidays.  I don’t want you to be sick then.”

    Milan wanted to tell her not to worry, but his chest felt congested.  He knew a bad cold was coming.

    His bedroom was fully furnished, and on the third floor, with the tall windows showing off the trees in the backyard.  The bathroom connected his room to Ayu’s bedroom.  Their mother had worked hard to make sure they were comfortable.

    Milan wanted to explore but he was too tired.  Traveling always left him so tired.  The cold was unwelcome, and he was insanely uncomfortable.  The discomfort eased after a hot shower, and he wore the warm pajamas his mother insisted he wear.  The potato soup she brought in with a slice of bread was delicious; it warmed him deep to the bones.  Sliding into bed, Milan sat, his back leaning on the headboard watching her arrange the things from his book bag on his reading desk by the windows.

    “I’ve been looking at schools,” Ilaria said.  “Ayu!”

    “Yes, Mamma,” Ayu called back from his bedroom.

    “Come in here, polpetto.  I have news.”

    Milan played with the covers, still watching his mother.  Ayu entered the bedroom a minute later, and came to join him on the bed, sitting on top of the covers, right next to Milan.

    “Are you serious about not going to university?” Ilaria asked him.

    “Yes.”

    “I don’t agree with this.”  Ilaria arranged a stack of Mario Llosa books on the shelf above Milan’s desk, and then turned to face them.  “No son of mine will live without higher education.  Yes, Ayu, there is a university close here.  I got your records from Turin, and they accepted them.  You only need to choose the courses you want, classes start in January.”

    “What about Milan?”

    “Milan has decision to make too,” Ilaria said.  “Two choices, we can get a tutore, continue your studies as before, but you seemed to like school in Turin.  I will do what you want.”

    “How far is the high school from here?” Ayu asked.

    “There is the public school.  It’s not far, though we would have to drop Milan off.  They offered a school bus, but I don’t think standing outside is good for your health.  You need a ride into school, and someone to pick you up.  I can drop you off in the morning.”

    “Then I will arrange my classes so that I’m able to pick him up,” Ayu said.

    “Marie is also with us,” Ilaria said, smiling when both boys grinned.  “She agreed to move here, with us.”

    “Oh, that’s awesome.  At least there is one person we know,” Milan said.

    Cucciolo, you still have not told me if you will go to school.”

    “Is it very different from the one in Italy?” Milan shuddered.  “I’ve read stories, the bullying and the clicks—”

    “You can choose the international school.  This way everyone you find there will be different like you.  You’ve been to one in Turin.”

    “The international school will cost you,” Milan noted.  “You have to pay for Ayu’s university now—”

    “Your education is important, to your Papa, to me, Milan.  You don’t worry about cost.  It is our job.”

    “Yeah well,” Milan sighed.  “I didn’t like the international school and ended up moving to public school in Turin.  It was the only way to learn the language, and get to know the community.”

    Milan stared at his fingers.  Life was about experience.  The tutor would mean he would be safe indoors.  Not have to face people he didn’t want to.  The international school was a strain on his parent’s budget.  They had to worry about his health, and Ayu’s university…plus, the students tended to stick to their own little communities.

    “I’ll go to the public high school,” Milan said.

    “Are you sure?” Ayu asked beside him.

    “It will be a new experience,” Milan insisted.  “A new adventure.”

    Si, it is,” Ilaria nodded.  “Well, that is good news.  I will drop by there end of this week.  If you’re feeling well, you can visit with me if you want.”

    Milan nodded, a wave of excitement and anxiety racing through him.

    “Where is Papa?” Milan asked.

    “Papa is busy working,” Ilaria said.  “His lab is now just beyond the trees.  This new investor is very keen on finishing Papa’s research.  So, Papa will be home when he decides to take a break.”

    Ilaria sighed.

    “He is working too much again.  I hope he can make it to breakfast tomorrow.  It will be nice to have us all at the table.”

    Milan yawned, feeling tired.  His yawn triggered Ayu and Ilaria into motion.  In minutes, he was horizontal on the bed tucked in tight like a hot pocket, and the lights turned down.

    Ayu kissed his forehead and left, leaving Ilaria sitting on the side of the bed.  She rubbed his chest, and reached out to push his dark curly hair out of his eyes.

    “You’re going to be okay,” Ilaria murmured, though her tone sounded as though she was convincing herself.  “Papa is close, and at least here we can find the best hospitals to take care of you if things get worse.  My cucciolo, mamma loves you very much, you know that, yes?”

    Milan nodded.

    “I love you too.”

    Ilaria leaned down, filling his nostrils with the scent of fresh citrus, his favorite scent.  She pressed a soft kiss on his forehead, and then stood.

    “Okay, goodnight.  Sweet dreams, my love.”

    “Goodnight, Mamma.”

    Milan drifted to sleep in this new strange place, feeling on the edge of a new dawn.

    ***

    That’s the start.  Working on the rest, will let you know where to find this new story.  Enjoy, Sui.


    The Morgan Lore has been complete for a while and is available as an ebook. Check out the links below:

    The Morgan Lore Book Cover

    Rory Morgan, just coming of age at eighteen, eagerly anticipates embracing his inherited birthright. He yearns to immerse himself in the responsibilities that accompany his family’s legacy, unaware that a chance encounter is about to unravel the world he thought he knew.

    When Rory crosses paths with Milan Takeda, an extraordinary connection blossoms between them. As their lives intertwine, both young men confront hidden secrets and discover the transformative power of unexpected connections.

    eBook


  • Book Cover Surprise

    Today is Sunday, and as always, most of Sunday mornings, you’ll find me at my desk.  So, today, I’m deep in the mind of Koji from Seiryu Spirit, and sudden inspiration strikes in the form of a book cover.

    I get excited every time my favorite person designs a cover and it matches the story.  So, I have this story we call Hitokiri (The Assassin).  I finished it sometime last year, and I’ve just been sitting on it, not really editing it.  Though I love those characters dearly.  L, who makes most of my covers attacked this morning with the cover for Hitokiri, and now, I feel I need to edit it, turn it into an eBook and that’s just a lot more work, but okay.  I’m for it.

    Hahaha…

    I’ve decided to attack you too with Hitokiri’s cover and hopefully the next little e-book I make. Okay, it’s a definite, I’ve been asked to stop saying hopefully and be definite, so here is the definite next e-book coming your way.

    The Assassin: Hitokiri by Suilan Lee Book Cover

    May you have an amazing Sunday!

  • Always You – Shorts by Sui

    Happy February!

    It’s good to celebrate small milestones! This year, I’m determined to give my writing the attention it deserves, no matter what! And so far, I’ve managed to upload three short stories onto smashwords I’ve managed to upload these shorts in an anthology on Amazon. The anthology is called “The Arrival of Spring: An Anthology of Four Heart-Stirring MMRomance Stories“.   They are oldies, (meaning, they were written before) but they never had e-books before.  I couldn’t seem to find the time before to upload them.  Now, I’m glad that this is done.

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    This last short – Always You, Only You, is a story that came to be because of a close friend.  I struggled with the ending, yep, this happens at times.  There are those endings that just won’t come easily.  However, no matter how much I read through it, these two characters, Miki and Shin, just won’t have it any other way.  Oh well, enjoy this little departure from my usual endings.

    February comes with new goals.  I hope to write a new story for valentine’s day this year.  I’m in the mood for romance, and I hope you are too!

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    On a side note, here is a pride of lions to make you smile.  Family runs strong here.  Hehehe, went on a safari adventure and ran into these guys! Whoa! Exciting and exhilarating! They truly bring life into perspective.

    Have a fabulous weekend,

    Cheers,

    Sui.


    The Arrival of Spring an anthology of mmromance stories by Suilan Lee

    The Arrival of Spring
    An Anthology of Four Heart-Stirring MMRomance Stories


    Celebrate the season of renewal and love with The Arrival of Spring, a captivating anthology that weaves together four unique stories of connection, courage, and new beginnings. Every chapter is a promise of renewal—a reminder that sometimes, the most unexpected connections can transform our lives.


  • Shorts by Sui – The Unexpected Gift

    Mid-January! The year is fifteen days old.  I hope you have done at least one exciting thing.  You just need the one to get started, then the second one comes easier.

    From my desk, here is another short story to read called The Unexpected Gift of Love.  The are two short stories available on gayauthors.org. The Unexpected Gift of Love came to be because of a prompt response from Gayauthors.org.  I post some of my work-in-progress stories on this site and it has become an invaluable writing resource over the years. 

    Back to the story, Ren Hill faces a personal betrayal that breaks his family in half.  He must find a way to move ahead and protect his teenage twins from heartbreak.  Ryan, who has always liked Ren, has the hard job of convincing Ren to give him a chance.

    The Unexpected Gift of Love was a look at divorce and the impact it can have.  I think that commitment is such an important aspect in relationships, it requires effort, and sometimes that effort just fails. What a disappointment that turns into!  Do check out this little story.

    Alright, I hope your January is going well, that it’s fantastic, and only good things are coming to you.

    Look out for the last of this Shorts by Sui Last week of January.

  • Story Shorts – Little Stories that Make you Smile

    Happy New Year!

    I hope the year has started with good vibes for you.  I’m also sending you good vibes, right now.  2018 is here, 2 years to the Tokyo 2020 Olympics. Strange thing to remember, but I’m actually looking forward to that.

    January should be celebrated.  There are so many fresh new starts.  You can do anything in January.  For me, I’m greeting you with a Short Story, neatly compiled into an e-book for your enjoyment.  I hope you enjoy it!

    The title of this short story is ‘Do You Know?’.  This is a story about Saki Masashi, a Tokyo University art student, in his final year.  His powerful older brother suddenly pulls him out of Tokyo Uni., and sends him to the U.S. to enroll into Alexander University.  Saki has had to deal with his older brother treating him this way all his life.  In response to his brother’s cold shoulder attitude, Saki decides to fill his life with warm, memorable moments.

    I loved writing this story because it was about seeking out those moments in life that make you happy.  Smiles can come from things, (nothing feels right unless I have coffee from my favorite chipped mug) activities, (I garden to find my smiles when they disappear), and people.  I’m sure there are those people who fill you up with warmth, just by them calling you or sending you a message to ask about soy sauce. (Hehehe)

    Do You Know? is part of an mmromance anthology called ‘The Arrival of Spring’.

    Find the eBook here: The Arrival of Spring

    Look out for more of these short stories.

     

     

  • Falling in love with Reading

    In a quiet, mundane moment this past week, I fell in love with reading, again.  You might find that statement strange coming from a writer, but it is true.  I was reading before, of course I was reading…books, stories, newspapers, magazines, and it all filled me up as good content often does.  But, what I’m referring to here is that falling into another world, peaceful and absolutely liberating feeling of holding a book and only finally looking up when the there are five pages left.  I look at the time, and the day has disappeared, and I don’t feel bad about it because the book in my hand made it all worth it.  In fact, I wanted to go back to the moment right before I cracked the spine and fall in again.  I didn’t want to finish the last five pages because it meant that I would have to give up the moment, merge back to the present.  Then I thought, all I need to do is find another book.

    I had forgotten this feeling.  Lost it between endless work-related meetings, obligations and commitments.  It is hard to lose yourself in a book when clients are calling your phone, constantly seeking your attention, reports are waiting on the desk, and everyone has a problem waiting for you to solve. I love the challenge the day job provides, and at times I absolutely find solace in it, but it has also taken away from some simple things like reading.

    Perhaps it was the book I was reading…I can’t quite express it.  Whatever it was, I fell in love again with reading.  The bug bit me so hard, I ran back to the bookstore and I now have a pile of books by my bedside table waiting for me.   The excitement of it makes me high.

    I’m currently deep in the grip of Maggie Steifvater’s The Raven Cycle, where kisses might mean the end.

    Gansey, Blue, Ronan and Adam are an absolute delight. 

    Over at the Daily Post, I found this quote:

    Writer Rebecca Solnit on stories:Stories are compasses and architecture; we navigate by them, we build our sanctuaries and our prisons out of them, and to be without a story is to be lost in the vastness of a world that spreads in all directions like arctic tundra or sea ice.”

    I feel as though it might describe a bit of me before this rediscovery of reading.  While the writing part of my life is essential, absolutely needed that it can keep me up at night.  But the reading part too, the reading is essential.  Stories can truly liberate you in a way you can’t define.

  • Chuseok Love This Year

    You can’t say thanksgiving (chuseok) without mentioning family.  This year I find myself viewing the word family in a different perspective, a non-traditional way.  My friend, Moon, says that with each year we grow older, but also more clearer on things.   What I know today, will definitely change next year, or be more refined.  I’ve come to realize that the people who make me feel the most comfortable, the most myself, are now family to me.  At times blood family won’t always be where you can be comfortable, this has been hard to accept, but since I’m smiling as  I type this, it seems I have come to accept it.

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    Welcome to dinner

    Thanksgiving this year was having some alone time, being in an absolute quiet space. I value these moments because they’re a source of strength.  My old, old friends who are now staying with me made lunch, that ran into afternoon, and into dinner.  I’m amazingly grateful that I’m laughing easier having them around.  Gosh, a good laugh will truly put you in a great mood.  You don’t realize how lonely you are, until you have someone calling you to ask how your day is and when they don’t do it once, you miss it and wonder how you lived without that call before.

    I’m babbling now on the good fortune that has moved into my house.

    Happy Chuseok! (Korean Thanksgiving) and cheers to you!

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    Cheers!

     

  • Words do turn into WMDs

    There are moments when a single word is more powerful than an action.  One word can send you catapulting into the ether, throwing off events in a day, ruining a perfectly harmonious dinner party, cracking a heart into pieces…

    No thinking too much, just Smell the Cherry Blossoms

    One word, it seems, can make or destroy.

    This I’ve come to experience of late, and it has turned into a humbling? Or should I say educative moment in life.

    Do you know there are people in your life, no matter what they say, you find yourself analyzing their every word.  Why did he/she say that?  What is she/he thinking?  How does it relate to me?  Goodness is this self-centered or what? But seriously, what did they mean?  This is the endless cycle of questions that leads to insanity.  Perhaps, the education here is to take statements at face value.  Not to overthink what is not stated, but…truthfully, this is really hard to do.

    So, is this overthinking situations, words, and over analyzing people a woman thing? Or is it the result of having an over-creative mind? Could be both, in which case, this writer continues to learn the hard way.

    All I have managed to realize is that I need to check my thoughts, my own words, because I might be over judging scenarios and turning them into mountains when they’re only pebbles on a path.

    Works – in – Progress

    Good news is, I’ve been writing, challenging news is that I have yet to turn completed work into downloadable e-books.  Will work on that this coming June as free time is on my way.  Look forward to these WiPs.

    Always You, Only You

    A Haunted Love

    And a short Anthology of stories.

     

  • Sunday Fun- Friends & Lovers

    Sunday Fun- Friends & Lovers

    Sundays are beautiful and bittersweet.  Sunday morning hours are always the best part of the week.  Our morning was rainy today, and I say ‘our’ because the house is  full of people.  Friends and Lovers, staying the weekend, looking for adventure in my corner of the world.

    Spent most of my morning reading, enjoying the sun coming up, with rain mixed in.  The blankets felt warm and the cat snuggled up right in there, it was perfect.  Then the horde woke up, and suddenly it’s a frenzy of making breakfast, brewing coffee, slicing fruits…randy jokes from the Lovers.  Gotta love the lovers, they spice up the morning with kisses.  The rest of us tease them, but they don’t seem to mind it. I love that they’re all in the kitchen, making my day.

    Then it’s out in the garden for all of us.  After a busy week, just sitting outside, enjoying the sun after a refreshing rain and arguing over who is going to cook the turnips for lunch, I feel like this is heaven.

  • Magic Hour

    Magic Hour

    It’s a Thursday morning, sitting at my desk, looking at a work day spent writing. Some four to five hours.  I often work with music on, and as I’m on a great One Ok Rock binge, their song Hard to Love comes on and nostalgia sets in.

    You know they hit the lyrics right when they have your mind wandering on a trip.  This song has me thinking of my Dad.  My Dad remains this great mysterious man in my memory.  I can only imagine what he thought of me, as he died when I was too young to comprehend much about life.  I often imagine he’d have given me advice like in this song when I think of him.

    A hard-working man, who loved his family and did what he could to create a future for us.  This picture is different depending with who you talk to, but for me, it really never changes.  In my memory, he is firmly a super hero who I know I will always look up to.

    Full of nostalgia feels, magic hour takes over as I plan the next part of a story taking shape.  The beauty of fiction is that it can take you places you never expected to be.